Human exhaustion

I've had writer's block for the past six months. Actually, it's less "writer's block" and something more along the line of "writer's (missing) motivation." Or, more on the nose, "human exhaustion." I've made posts about all the crazy goings ons with regard to my day job -- which, I will state again for the record, brings me much joy due to the amazing people I work with and am surrounded by 40+ hours a week -- but here's the thing. Even on my days off, I'm too tired to actually write.

On my days off, I do all the adult things I'm supposed to do during the week but am too tired to actually do because I'm a sleepy person who wants to just lay on the ground for a few hours until I have to make dinner and then eventually/inevitably fall asleep on the couch. I do laundry, clean dishes, vacuum, yadda yadda yadda. Recently, I've been packing, because tomorrow I'm switching apartments again which is a whole other story about stress and boxes and messes.

What was I getting at again? Oh right! Writing. Yes. So, because of ALL THE THINGS happening, I haven't had the motivation/energy to sit down and write anything of substance. A few weeks back, I started writing the beginning of a new story I am excited about. I'm calling it T.M.o.D. (which I know the full name of but is a secret for now) and!!! I LOVE IT!!! I mean, the little bit I wrote the past week needs to be seriously rewritten, but now I know what I want and what I don't want for it to become. The pinterest board alone gives me all the excitement and inspiration, and I swear, every time I look at it I have the best intentions of writing but then I remember it's almost 10PM and I still have to have dinner or clean the bathroom or hang the clothes that have somehow found their way onto the floor of my room.

I'm going to get back to writing. Soon. I have a vacation coming up that I intend to spend on the beach, reading, or inside an air conditioned home writing. I'm hoping I can hold myself up to that expectation. At the very least, some serious reading will get done. And plotting. The writing will come. I'm still working on find that balance.

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