For the last two weeks, it's been stormy and gray. Today, the sun came out, and with it, I've come to a sappy realization that I'm really, really happy with where I am in my life. I've come a long way, and I'm pretty proud of myself.
Okay, so I'm still stressed about figuring this whole "adult" thing out. But I'm guessing that's more of a fake-it-till-ya-make-it situation. No one seems to know what they're doing anyway. You just get really good at pretending until suddenly things start to actually work out. AND THINGS ARE WORKING OUT REALLY WELL LATELY! Not to jinx it, but I'm getting really excited about what 2016 is doing with me, and I hope the trend continues. I don't think I've ever been in such a good place with both my work, friends, and personal life.
A lot has happened since my last update in March. A lot of good things. The biggest news: I got a promotion at work. When I started out as a seasonal associate, I never would have guessed I'd be in a manager role six months later. Retail work is hard. It's exhausting. But it's also kind of the best. Last September when I interviewed for my job, I had no idea that I would fall in love with my work the way I did -- or that I'd become close friends with the wonderful girls I work with. But I did.
With my work, I've managed to find a level of control over my stress and anxiety. The financial stability helps, but also knowing that I'm capable of doing all that I've done has instilled a level in confidence in myself I haven't had before. I've grown a lot since I let my anxiety run my life, and I'm not done growing. Like I said before, anxiety is a constant battle, but I'm still fighting. I'm surrounding myself with good people, and I'm letting that intention work its way through the rest of my life.
Summer is coming closer, and with it, I want to focus on being happy and letting go of any negativity that managed to hold onto me for so long. My sister is home for the summer and she's been filling our apartment with green things. (See above.) And they're growing! (See above.) Next step is to find great food to eat, to feel better and healthier and more energetic. And water! Drinking more water -- that'll always be on my list. I'm also pulling out my camera more (read: camera, not phone) to take pictures. I always forget to do that, and I really want to have more pictures of my friends and my favorite moments so I can relive it all.
This summer will be the best, busiest, and craziest one yet. Bring it on.